my blog today
is about priorities. I’m not sure what my goal in life is. Some days I want to be a huge CEO who makes huge strategic decisions and is on every “Top _ Under _” list. Other days I want to live in a suburban home and be a great mom to 4 kids. On the really crazy days I dream about to running off to live in Aruba and just do yoga and swim and teach english for a living. It seems rather naive, but I literally just had the realization today that I’m not going to have the time or the ability to do everything that I’ve ever wanted to do. I probably won’t be able to go to Harvard Business School unless I really try and I’m really lucky and I sacrifice about a thousand other things.
So, what is important to me? A great career? Seeing the world? The freedom to buy whatever pleases me? Coming home to my family at the end of the day to eat snacks and play board games? Learning everything I can about politics and history and the economy? Getting a doctorate? Perpetually having a six pack?
All I know is that I want a lot of things and I won’t ever be completely satisfied. But what I want to promise myself is that I won’t half ass any of these goals. I won’t let my laziness or lack of self control or mental weakness stop me from not grasping new opportunities or pursuing my ambitions. I want to crush everything I do and come home tired and hungry for more. You know, some Steve Jobs shit.
was so nice. I missed my family and my friends so much.
I realized that I’m most happy with the simple things. Driving down 9th Line with Timm past the corn fields after spending an afternoon golfing with a warm cup of Timmy’s just made me so damn happy. It’s too bad you have to make a good living to enjoy the simple things.
went surprisingly well. Got another interview for next week. Also got rejected from a job, but my interviewer called me and told me that he really liked me and to stay in contact and he’d vouch for me when I reapply next cycle. I’ve never been so happy about not getting a job.
Now just gotta get through an assignment and a book report and then heading home!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-Will hope to get some calls back after gruelling first rounds last week
-Destroy my international finance midterm
-Finish book report (have to read the book first lol…)
-Get a good start on fixed income analysis and case class projects
-Go home Thursday morning!!!!!
-Get a LOT of shopping done. like a LOT
-Spend time with family+timm+friends, maybe visit school?
Also recently I’ve found that I love school? Everything I’m learning is suddenly super interesting and just the right amount of challenging and makes me want to learn more? Don’t know if it’s just because I have good classes or maybe I’m finally growing up hahaha but feels good. feels real good.
to the group of arts students who study economics (mainly due to the fact that you couldn’t get into management) who belittle bcom students and overcompensate, presumably to make up for the fact that they couldn’t get into the faculty, I say fuck you!!!!!!! To whoever reading: sorry you had to waste your time reading that and I hope you don’t think I’m a sad and petty person.
everything i’ve wanted for the past 9 months
is suddenly within reach. I’m so scared. I’m so worried. I don’t know what to think. I don’t want to mess this up. alksjdflajsdf
on a scale of luke skywalker to jaime lannister how well would you deal with losing your right hand
or, on a scale of luke skywalker to jaime lannister how well do you deal with latent sexual feelings for your sister
or, on a scale of luke skywalker to jaime lannister how well would you deal with your dad being an utter bastard with unresolved issues about the death of his wife