I get pretty intense about things
Recently it’s been about health and fitness, probably because of the 30 day yoga challenge I just finished. Before that, it was about getting good grades. Before that, it was about my fashion blog. What ends up happening is that these intense interests tend to overlap and extend over each other, and I end up doing nothing but cycle through them unproductively because there are too many things running through my mind.
Because of this, my grades slipped for a couple of important weeks. Because of this, I’m no longer dedicated to my fashion blog. Because of this, I messed up an internship application I had a real shot at.
I need to find balance and focus. That’s what yoga was supposed to bring to me.. I guess it takes more time than that, but realizing is the first step, right?
I don’t think my intensity is an altogether bad thing, though. Because of it, I got really good at chatarungas and vinyasas. Because of my tunnel vision, I’m pretty much guaranteed A’s in 2 of my courses. Because of my enthusiasm, I’m much better at throwing together an outfit. They say that everyone has 24 hours a day and what you make of it depends on you. I have so many hopes and aspirations and interests that it’s incredibly hard to hold myself down to one thing, to really focus on one, specific, tangible thing and go at it until I’ve accomplished what I wanted to.
My goal for the 4 weeks is to focus my energy and find balance. Exams are coming up, but I still want to go to yoga regularly and finish my fashion video and fix up my resume for winter applications and get amazing grades.
"How different our lives are when we really know what is deeply important to us, and keeping that picture in mind, we manage ourselves each and every day to be and do what really matters most"
I read this quote years ago and haven’t forgotten it since. I guess this post is mainly a self-motivating thing, so here’s to the next 4 weeks.